Such a pretty word.

"Maybe i was too selfish, but what i know i just tried to do my best. But i guess i didn't notice any sign from you that you understood me. "

December 2011, such a precious month, i promise i will never forget everything wonderful that happened in this month.. And i thank God, for giving me something that make me smile again, you. It's just somehow make me feel relief, amazed, and shocked to know that someone out there is sneaking out to find every little thing about you, and what matters most is, he loves you. I've never fell in love with someone beside my family before. I did adore some guys in my junior high school before, but it turns out to a waste of time.


Everyday is getting brighter with him by my side, and what in my mind before going to bed and after i wake up is him. No, I'm not trying to make this sounds cheesy, but this is what I'm feeling right now, in love. Sounds cheesy but yeah, I'm on it. 4 months of struggle and effort from him to get me.. I appreciate it. Sometimes he could be the selfish son of a biatch but sometimes he could be an angel from heaven.


21 January 2012 // 21112 - The journey has started.
I hope you will be something worth to remember in my life. Since you're my first one, have a try. You might know me more, and maybe you may hate me more. I might a person you've been searching for, or I might a person you'll regret later. Love you

Days-Off!

Hello! Seneng banget sama bulan Desember. Kenapa? Tentu saja karena liburannya! Minggu kedua pada bulan Desember ini sekolah gue udah ngasih libur, seneng banget dapet 3 minggu libur natal&tahun baru. Dulu di Alix cuman 2 minggu. Nah pada minggu pertama gue libur, sekolah gue ngadain Osis Camp. Osis Camp adalah kaya pergi ke suatu tempat bareng2 satu angkatan dan sedihnya cowo sama cewe dipisah. Well, at first gue excited banget soalnya gue udah bayangin we'll go to somewhere cool and i was expecting beach! Tapi semua pemikiran gue salah, we didn't go to somewhere cool/beach, kita pergi ke Mekarsari, Taman Safari, dan Trans Studio. Sounds what? Yep, sounds cheesy and boring. Gue yang tadinya semangat banget mau ikut, begitu tau mau kesana, jadi mikir dua kali. Dan pada akhirnya.. gue ikut karena gue naydar gue udah bayar uang kegiatan diawal dan bakal hangus kalo gue ga ikut. Nah setelah gue ikut, gue sama sekali ga nyesel loh, yaaa gimana ya gue seneng aja ngumpul satu angkatan dan nginep bareng bareng and spend days together. Kita jadi saling kenal lebih jauh, lebih akrab, dan makin tau aib satu sama lain LOL. Dan 4 hari bersama itu bakal jadi salah satu pengalaman berharga di hidup gue :)

Day 3
Trans Studio Bandung

me with the....?

me&Gulsah expressions when we about to take a ride on Vertigo!



our expressions when we were on the roller coaster. F-U-NDay 1
Mekarsari

me&Gulsah. She's holding a bucket of Salak that we got for free!

me, cucut&dara

arinie, risca&me. on a bus to take a look around

Day 2
Taman Safari Indonesia

me with the white tiger. he was sleeping on my lap :"D
ps: he was stinky.

me with orang utan. Look how cut she is! She wasn't stinky like the tiger, and she was a little heavy but me adore her!



us with the cutie chihuahua!

When we were in the cottage, we took some 'fun' photos lol check it out.

Aloha (again)

Hi! It's been months since my last post. I read some of my old posts and realized i was sooo childish and emotional LOL. Now what shud i write? Nah i'm in my year-end holiday now. Feeling so good cause i don't have to wake up early and go to school in 3week holiday, yay me!

Now i'm a 10th grader in Kharisma Bangsa school. I've been a 10th grader for 6 months. Time flies fast. I met some new friends. At first i didn't get along that well, but now i think i have met some friends that have a lot in common, but yet, i haven't find the ones who have same taste of jokes and music.. /le sad. And in there, i feel the real solidarity of friends, it's just so different from junior high LOL. The boys are friendly and easy to talk to, me likey. And and and and what else? Hmm most of the seniors are friendly i think..

I less than three 'em.

Tadi gue udah nulis tentang Syncrolix, sekarang gue bakal ceritain tentang orang-orang yang paling berpengaruh terhadap kehidupan gue selama di SMP Al-Ikhlas. :) Enjoy

I'd like to call them the top four since they know me so well since i was in 7th grader.

Izahirra Vinissa, Annisaa Cattleya, Athiya Fadlina.

Mereka tuh udah kaya keluarga, udah tau busuk-busuknya gue, udah sering berantem sama gue, udah sering bete gara gara gue, tau semua rahasia tentang gue, tau sejarah kehidupan gue, dan semuanya. Mereka tuh baiknya luar biasa, tapi ngeselinnya juga luar biasa. Tapi mau gimanapun juga gue sayang banget sama mereka, dan sedih banget SMA pisah. Apalagi Syira sekolahnya di luar negeri nanti huhu :( Plis kalo udah punya temen baru jangan lupain gue ya *hug*

The Cogan Hunters
Nazhira Farhani, Adzra Tsamara.

Kalo udah ngomongin cogan, kita jagonya *yea* jangan ilfeel dulu, kita bukan gadis-gadis genit kok. Kita cuman petualang yang mencari cinta sejati.. Gapernah punya pacar dari kelas 7, itu yang membuat kita sering bersatu mencari cogan yang setia. Jangan sombong-sombong yah kalo udah punya pacar masing-masing. :* :) #02

Bangsulerz!
Annisaa Cattleya, Athiya Fadlina, Adzra Tsamara, Nazhira Farhani, Tasya Andraina, Dhia Syarifa, Ghassani Nayaka.

Mulai mewarnai hidup gue sejak kelas 9, berpengaruh terhadap kehidupan gue di kelas 9. They're lovely! Sedih banget gabisa liburan bareng karena ada halangan masing-masing. Sekarang ada yang beberapa satu sma bareng, ada juga yang engga. Jangan lupain gue sul! *hug*

Master of Photoshop!
Hadijah Larasti, Sharein Shafa.

Nah untuk dua orang terakhir ini, mereka sangat berpengaruh terhadap kehidupan art gue *yea* Berkat mereka, gue menjadi terinspirasi dalam mengedit foto menjadi sebuah karya yang maha indah. Mereka kaya masternya gitu deh di Alix :) Trus mereka tuh temen ngomongin Big Brother. Gila ngomonginnya kaya udah berbusa-busa gitu dulu di sekolah. Jadi kaya gue pengen ketemu mereka pengen ngomongin Big Brother dan semacamnya. Trus kita bertiga adalah Bisma Lovers! Tau kan lo Sm*sh? itu ada satu anggotanya ganteng. Gue sama Aaz sih ga suka sm*shnya, cuman suka bismanya. Tapi kalo tata.. gausah ditanya. Mulai dari majalah sm*sh sampe cd sm*sh dia juga punya. Eits, bukan berarti dia alay loh. Dia ga alay sama sekali, malah anak tergaul masa kini. LOVE Y'GUYS:D

Nah udah tuh orang-orang yang berpengaruh di kehidupan smp gue. Yang ga ada namanya bukan berarti ga berpengaruh ya :) Okay nighty night!

3 Tahun Bersama.

Sebelumnya, mungkin post ini mirip sama punya Hadijah Larasti, tapi gue juga pingin banget mengekspresikan banyak perasaan dari diri gue kepada Syncrolix.

Ga kerasa banget udah 3 tahun bareng kita jalanin, tanpa disadari, Syncrolix udah ngewarnain hidup gue. Kadang-kadang gue ngerasa kesel gara gara mereka, kadang gue ngerasa seneng, kadang kaget, sedih, kocak dan segala macem deh. Ga nyangka banget sekarang udah ngelangkah ke sekolah yang berbeda, udah pake seragam yang beda-beda, udah nemu temen-temen baru yang ga kalah asiknya pasti. Tapi sesungguhnya 3 tahun terakhir kemarin adalah 3 tahun paling berwarna di dalam hidup gue. Gue bakal kangen banget sama kalian semua, bakal kangen sama kebiasaan yang udah kita jalanin 3 tahun terakhir ini, bakal kangen sama semua rutinitas yang kita lakuin di alix, bakal kangen sama manis paitnya hidup di Sekolah Menengah Pertama. Kalau kalian nanti udah pada gede-gede dan sukses(Amin!) jangan lupain gue ya, jangan lupain kenangan di SMP lo dulu, jangain lupain guru-gurunya juga ya!

masih pake jaket angkatan dan seragam yang sama :')


udah beda seragam semua :')

2009-2011
time of my life

Truth Hurts.

i cried and cudn't stop.

4 hari tersakit yang pernah gue alamin di hidup gue. Ga nyangka aja, orang yang lo percayai selama ini, orang yang lo anggap deket banget sama lo selama ini, orang yang tau semua rahasia lo selama ini, orang yang selalu ngasih tau semuanya ke lo selama ini, orang yang minta pendapat lo kalo dia bingung, orang yang selalu ada dimana gue butuh, nyembunyiin sesuatu dari gue dalam waktu lama. Berapa lama? berbulan-bulan. Dan bagian yang terburuk adalah, dia ngasih tau ke semua orang even my sweet enemy. Itu ngena banget loh. Beneran. Gimana ya perasaannya? Gabisa dijelasin pake kata-kata. Lo ngerasa.. diboongin selama ini.. Lo ngerasa.. selama ini dia cuman pura-pura di depan lo.. Sumpah sakit banget coy. Apalagi itu ada 2 hal yang dia sembunyiin and hal-hal itu penting buat dia&penting buat gue juga pastinya. Selama 4 hari terakhir gue merasa emo, nangis mulu, gapernah senyum, walaupun lagi nge gossip ria sama temen-temen, tetep aja gue diem. Dengerin doang, sambil merenung juga tentang tuh orang. Tiap malem mau tidur, gue selalu mikir-mikir dulu, merenung, kenapa ya? kenapa harus gue? kenapa harus dia yang ngelakuin ini ke gue? Mungkin karena gue dulu terlalu banyak berharap sama dia, jadinya gini nih, kalo udah ada sesuatu aja sakitnya tuh sakit banget. Emang salah juga sih, makanya sekarang gue mau belajar buat ga terlalu banyak berharap sama orang. Berharap dianggep sama orang, berharap lo bakal dikasih tau everything sama orang. Gabakal lagi deh.


Gue tau banget kenapa dia ga mau ngasih tau gue, masuk akal kok alasannya, tapi ya Allah, cape juga kali, masa gue harus berapa kali banget ngasih tau orang-orang kalo gue udah ga ada perasaan apa-apa sama 12 12 09. It's over already. Emang sih, gue ngegalauinnya ampe 12 12 10 tapi abis itu udah, selesai. Ga pernah kepikiran dia lagi, sakit hati lagi, mikir dulu sama dia gimana, gapernah lagi kok. 2011 tuh bener-bener gue cuman ngagumin orang-orang, gapernah kepikiran buat suka. Soalnya gue udah pengalaman, sakit banget, jadi ga lagi.


Ya mungkin sekarang gue udah maafin tuh orang, tapi pasti entar, pas gue jalan ama dia lagi, ngomong sama dia lagi, semuanya bakal beda. Walaupun gue terlihat seneng ngomong ama dia, ketawa-ketawa, tapi pasti, dalam hati gue, gue masih ngerasa sakit atas apa yang lo udah lakukan, atas apa yang udah lo sembunyikan selama ini.

Thanks for reading.

Bali Getaway!

Ola! Just got home from Bali and it's a lie :) I went to Bali last week, spent almost a week there, stayed in a hotel around Nusa Dua :) I enjoyed that vacation! I went to Bali with my cousins & my family. Hm, Bali have changed! Like a lot! Now there are like tons of hotel in Kuta, and traffic become worse there. Don't go to Kuta & Legian by car or you'll get stuck there like an hour.. I went to Waterbom Bali, too! That was my first time to go to Waterbom. There are less indonesian there, and so much cute british&australian boys there<3 (Don't envy me)

The first day there i was just enjoying the beach in the back of the hotel, and tanning (LOL). And my mom found a starfish in the sea! Starfish is aww-dorable! It's so pinky he he.

The Second day, i went to Nusa Lembongan by a ship.. It takes 45minutes trip from Benoa Harbour to Nusa Lembongan. And, i played a-lot in pontoon!! And psst, that was my second time to Nusa Lembongan he he :) I was doing snorkling, canoe-ing, get a thousand ride on banana boat, take a ride on a glass bottom boat, what else? I think that's all.. and the pontoon is yellow and i love that kind of yellow<3 And at 4.00 pm we had to go back to Benoa Harbour. And i spent the rest of the day in Kuta. The third day, i went to Waterbom Bali! I love that Waterbom. Less Indonesian, and i met lot of british&australian boys! Some of them are cute<3 And i tried all the waterslide (even the highest one) there! That was joy, actually. I felt no frighten at all. And at 6 the Waterbom is closed, and we went to Kuta again for dinner! The fourth day, I spent my day in hotel again, swam on the beach&swimming pool, massaged, and others. And we went to Jimbaran for dinner he-he.

 The last day, i just went to Khrisna, to went some souvenirs for my friends, bough lot of balinese clothes, pants, aroma therapy hehe. And we had dinner at the hotel, and rested cause tomorrow morning at 4 i have to go to Airport and get a flight home :-(

That was my story about my holiday! And you know what, i met Vierra at the plane, Kevin is such a cutie! :P Lol bye.

I'm such a..?

Haha hello! I feel like the holiday is gonna end, soon. Sad? Of course! You know you won't get up at 12 and take a shower at 4pm. You have to wake up at 6am, take a super cold shower (or warm) and go to school in uniform! That sucks. But when you're having 2 months and 2 weeks holiday, you're gonna miss wearing your school uniform, meet all your friends in school, meet your teachers, writing on books and skipping boring or scary teacher class. And that's how i feel now. I miss my friends! The jerks, the bitches, the riots, the clevers, the talk-a-lot, the quiet and others. And of course i miss my best friends. That's just quiet funny when you're having a long holiday and you miss school. But when the time you have to go to school everyday, you want a holiday! Haha i know we're all the same. And i think i just can't face the truth that i have to go to new school, meet new friends, new teachers, new seniors, and everything different! I'll miss my friends, my teachers, Al-Ikhlas' building, and everything!!! I don't think i can face it.

Hi.

Just like the title, Hi. I'm here to tell my current feeling right now.
I'm pissed.

I don't know if i should to, but.. i'm so pissed right now. I'm going mad.
Don't you just hate it, when your close friend (well, used to) going to sleepover with your close friends and you're not invited? This is currently happening to me right now. And yeah, she didn't invited me. F*** YOU! I don't even remember how to spell that word right now. Rhh. I don't ven know what to write right now! That's because i'm so.. umm yeah angry, mad, and going to BOOM! And i just wanna say to that girl, i will not go to your party again, i will not go to every bull shit event you'll make, and yeah, don't talk to me right now. Or forever. Ever. Ever. and Ever.

Bye.

Glee!

Pada suka nonton Glee ga? Gue suka banget tuh, walaupun akhir-akhir ini gue ga terlalu ngikutin soalnya sibuk :) Nah trus pagi ini, pas gue ngubek-ngubek youtube, gue nemu cover-annya Glee gitu, lagunya Rebecca Black yang Friday. Pada tau kan? Itu loh yang ini..

trus covernya Glee yang ini..

Jelas enakan yang versi Glee ya kalo dibandingin. Tapi kan ga semua orang suka dibandingin, jadi kita menghargai juga lah hasil 'kerja keras' Rebecca Black. And btw, bagi senior year yang udah libur, gimana liburannya? Pasti seru ya, gue sih udah buat banyak rencana buat kedepannya, biasanya ada yang gagal ada yang engga, jadi doain semuanya berjalan lancarrr :)

Nature.

Hallo semua! gue seneng banget udah libur jadi ga ngapa-ngapain lg deh. Trus tadi gue iseng foto-fotoin kucing gue yang namanya Eevee yang lagi asik-asiknya di halaman rumah gue haha. Trus gue selipin foto kucing kesayangan gue :P Oh iya, besok gue mau foto buat buku angkatan nih, semoga gue keliatan kurusan dan cantikan wkwk. Toodles!

Free at last.

SYNCROLIX 2011

VOLTETTRA 2011

HEY!!! Finally i'm free from books, from try outs, from national exams, from everything that has to do with school! I'm happy and sad in the moment. I'm sad because i know i'll leave that old building, i'll leave the teachers, i'll leave my lovely friends, i'll leave the juniors i hate, i'll leave the person i love and i think i won't meet them again.. and hmm, been planning a holiday escape! but still confuse which country/city is the best for holiday with friends. Any reccomend?

UAS.

Hello!!! Udah seminggu gue ga buka blog karena 2 alasan:

1. Karena minggu kemarin gue Ulangan Akhir Sekolah
2. Modemnya rusak

Jadi bukan sepenuhnya karena keinginan gue haha. Andd, instaxmini gue baru dibenerin jadi udah bisa dipake lagi dan gue senang sekali yippie!!! Nah gue make film yang udah expired gitu jadinya gambarnya ga muncul. Sad.

I made it to gif but it won't work. F.

Mending gausah dibaca.

Gw mau curhat nih hari ini. Kemaren gw baru pulang dari Rumah Jambuluwuk. Gw disana ada Quantum Camp sama half of SYNCROLIX (nama angkatan gw). Nah malam terakhir sebelum pulang, gw ada acara yg namanya Eksplorasi. Katanya sih buat ngeluarin uneg-uneg gitu, jadi gw slow aja lah ya. Eh pas acara itu berlangsung, kita disuruh nulis kaya uneg-uneg tentang temen-temen satu pemantapan. Yaudah gw asal nulis aja kan ya biar penuh. Gw menulis 4 nama. si A,B,C&D. si A, gw ga deket. Tapi gw merasa, dia suka deket-deket gitu sama gw dan temen-temen gw. Jadi gw tulis aja namanya. "si A gausah jb jb" gitu.. trus gw nulis lagi "si B gausah banyak bacot" "si C gausah banyak nanya" dan yg terakhir gw nulis nama temen deket gw sendiri karena iseng dan gw kira cuman buat lucu-lucan aja "si D kalo ngomong gausah muncrat-muncrat dan ngejayus" Demi Tuhan gw gatau bakal dibacain. Eh ternyata, si mentor nyuruh kita buat ngegeser itu kertas ke samping sampe dia bilang stop. And voila, dia nyuruh kita semua bacain satu-satu. Alhasil, gw super deg-degan. Gatau jadinya gimana. Dan waktu giliran kertas gw yang mau dibaca sama si E, gw cuman nutupin muka pake bantal dan ga mau dengerin. Akhirnya dia ngebacain tuh kan, abis ngebacain biasa banyak orang yang ketawa-ketawa, tapi abis itu 'ada' yang komentar "kok jahat bgt sih" dan gw langsung gw langsung mikir; wey, emang lo gapernah ngomongin dia kaya gitu? emang lo gapernah ngomongin dia yang lebih parah dari itu? lo lebih jahat dari gw ya. Gw cuman nulis gitu, dan itu becanda. Kalo lo? Dan kejadian setelah hari itu juga ngebuktiin kalo apa yang gw lakuin tuh ga ada apa-apanya dibanding lo. Sekali lagi, sebelum lo komentar mending ngaca dulu sama sifat lo sendiri okay. Sorry gw curhat berlebihan. Sekian dan Terima Kasih.

Skip school!

oreo+smuckers are such amazing friends *tears* now i have to go to Citos and play laser game in kemang w/ Anis!! Bye

Halloween (2 Years ago)

*ding dong*

and i... welcoming you to Sasha's party!! YoYoYo

wasted-bloody me

it was 2 years ago. i had fun. i miss my old friends. i miss them. like, so much.

Butterfly Mask

...

Mom: Do you love me?
Me: Yes i do..
Mom: How much? tell me in percent..
Me: 100%
Mom: How about dad?
Me: 100%, too
Mom: I thought you love me more than you love dad..

Bummer..

Ga kerasa UAN bentar lagi, minggu depan udah try out ke 2 & minggu depannya lagi ujian praktek. Abis itu 14 maret ulangan umum. yang gue pikirin adalah apakah gue udah siap untuk menghadapi semua itu? apakah gue bakal melewati semua itu dengan mulus? *amin* apakah gue bakal menemukan halangan-halangan yang besar? pertanyaan-pertanyaan itu terus bergulir di otak gue. secara mental, jujur gue siap. tapi sekarang yang gue takutin, entar tiba-tiba pas ngerjin soal blank, lupa, ga konsen, itu yang buat gue takut banget. apalagi UAN. gue takut banget dengan hasil yang bakal gue dapet. Dan gue udah bertekad bakal ngelewatin tes-tes di depan mata gue dengan jujur. gue gamau pake bocoran apa lah itu. karna gue ga mau bohongin semua orang yang deket ama gue. jadi, tolong doain gue, semoga kedepannya gue sukses, dan hasil semua tes gue perfect! amin.

24faces

A cat named brownie

Kenalin, temen gue tiap hari nih. Temen curhat, temen main, temen tidur, temen apa aja deh pokoknya. Dia lahir sekitar 1 taun yg lalu pas di bulan Januari, berarti sekarang umurnya udah 1 tahun lebih beberapa hari yay! that wasn't me who gave her name.. dulu yang ngasih nama tuh sodara gue, jadi kan dia lagi makan brownies, ngeliat kucing gue tuh kan, mumpung belom dikasih nama, trus warna bulunya sama-sama coklat, jadinya dikasih nama brownies deh. Tapi lama kelamaan gue manggilnya malah brownie, malah nyokap gue manggilnya brown. Dia tuh tiap pagi tidur bareng gue loh.. dia masuk ke kamar gue dengan sendirinya trus tidur disamping gue gitu, she's just way too cute.

Calm down, it's just the camera effect!!!!!

this, too!!

she's not an alien or something, guys. Lots of things i want to tell you but, i have to watch Grammy '11. Toooooodles!